Energia Negativa

Lately, my life has been surrounded with negative Energy. And though I’d like to say that I can blame it all on myself, and that it is quick to change, it’s not. There are a few select people in my life that are constantly exploding with negative Energy, and it is just now that I am truly realizing how sickening it really is. I don’t know what to do! I mean, I am totally stuck in between two walls here. I am mostly focusing on one person, because the others, they are somewhat quick to change; but the one person I am specifically talking about, I feel as if I can’t tell them that they need to stop being so negative around me. I mean for god sakes, I have just realized myself how not to be negative; I really do not need someone who is going to just totally kill everything I’ve just discovered and worked at.So here’s an example of what happened today, and the inspiration for this blog.

We were sitting in the car at an intersection during a red light, and there is this woman walking across the street. So, Tim (let’s just call the person Tim, no gender specifications, but i’m gonna say he.) looks at her and says “Oh, I hope I’m never as unhappy and dreadful looking as her when I’m that old. I hope my face isn’t all shagged like hers from smoking and stuff.” And I said to Tim, “What makes you so sure that she is unhappy?” trying my best to turn it around so that Tim could actually see a positive side in his already negative judgmental state.  But there was no turning around because Tim just kept on going with his rude and awful comments.  Tim then continued to say “Well, she surely doesn’t look happy, I don’t know what you are seeing.”  And I just said to Tim, “Well I was’t seeing anything, because I had no interest in judging her.”  And then Tim instantly got angry with me, because I totally just proved him wrong.  And that wasn’t my goal.  I have no interest in being the ‘bigger person’ or ‘winning’.  I was just trying to make a valid point.  Of course, Tim didn’t get it.  But that whole car ride home, Tim was negative about everything.  He wasn’t negative before he said that; but as soon as he judged someone, negative energy was instantly swiped into our car and through our bodies.

I tried my best to block it out.  I really did.  But it seemed as if there was no turning back until I got out of that car and away from him.  And that’s the sad thing.  I mean, not only was I completely trapped in someone else’s negative mess, but it wasn’t a situation where I could just walk away from it.  I kind of had to stay in the car.

I really have no idea what to do about this.  I mean, I guess I could ask around, maybe go see a counselor or something (although I really do not believe in paying money to get help when you can easily just talk to someone who you already know and trust in.)  But either way, I need to do something about this because Tim is really starting to bring me down.  Not only does Tim judge random people he doesn’t even know, but everytime I wear something that I feel beautiful in, Tim always seems to have something negative to say about it.  I mean, I do agree, some of the things I wear are a little bit too revealing, and show a little too much bra; but some of the things Tim says to me really really hurt me, and I really don’t need that negative energy around me.

Anyways, I’m going to get off of here and go to bed.  Thanks for Reading. ♥
Peace, Love, and motherfucking Doves to ya,
Lindsay