Current Situations = Kick in the ass

I don’t know if it’s a mid-teenage life crisis or what,
but it seems everything is just starting to begin the now.  I mean, mostly my life is to my satisfaction.  And that I am truly grateful for.  But it seems relationships wise – things are really fucking up bad.  And I don’t just mean a boyfriend.  I mean like every different type of relationship you can have.  I am not going to come on here and write about every single person I’ve had a falling out with.  But it just seems that lately, I have been falling out with a few people that I really don’t want to fall out with.
I mean, so many things are holding me back from what I truly want in life.  And I know, I know… what makes me so special that I think I don’t have to wait for things just like everyone else?  Well, nothing makes me so special because I never said that is the way I thought of myself.  I just truly am annoyed with the current situations I have to deal with, just like probably every other teenage girl out there.  Normal shit, but it’s my blog so I’m allowed to complain.
Age.  My age is my worst enemy.  If there’s one thing I could ever change about myself, it would not be my weight, it would not be my face, and it would not be my family.. it would be my age.  I swear to god, it just holds me back from fucking everything.  Love, Artistry (aka my music), Work, etc.  It just totally fucks me over.  And again, this is another “Typical teenage situation”.  We all want to be older, I know.  And there is nothing that singles me out.  I just need to vent, I guess.
People say that when I hit my 30′s.. life is really just gonna take a turn.  I am going to wish that I was a teenager again, and that I would have done things differently.  You know what I say to those people?  A big fuck off.  Not only do they have no idea what the fuck goes on in my head, but I am not them.  They may have wished when they were 30 that they were teenagers again, but I am not them.  I do not, and will not have the same experiences.  Not everyone is negative when they hit the age of 30.  I mean, I’m totally being extremely negative right now.. lolol, but I’ve had a rough day, what can I say?

School is starting on Wednesday.  I am so fucking excited I can’t even express it to you.  Not only is my school one of my favourite places on Earth (not because I get to learn.. I really couldn’t give a fucking shit about learning.  I just love the teachers, and the family we have), but it’ll be nice to finally do something with my days!  I mean, I could have done things everyday of the summer instead of sitting home doing nothing, but of course being me I procrastinate and never do anything at all during summer.  Which you know what, I’ve kind of come to terms with that and I really don’t give a shit.  When I get my license and have my own car, I’ll be able to go wherever I want when I want and not have to depend on other people to take me where I want to go.  Not blaming my lazyness on others, I’m just saying.. I hate depending on other people.
Anyways, this blog was kind of a mind fuck of pointlessness.  So, I’ll let you poor poor reader go.  ;)
Peace, Love, and MOTHER FUCKING Doves to ya,
Lindsay Pearl.