The photo above is an iphone snapshot from the most recent photoshoot I did with Sarah Davison. The official photos will be coming soon and I am very excited to share them with you all. Sarah has been my photographer pretty well my whole career. She knows my angles well and I feel very comfortable with her. It is always a joy to work with her.
At the moment, I am currently taking it easy on the gigging side of things. I realized that I really needed to take time to focus on my EP, but also to focus on other things in life that I need to get done so that I can sustainably live off of music in the near future. There comes a point in every musicians life when they need to really weigh out the pro’s and con’s of trying to be a full time musician. Sometimes, we have to make the choice to rest on it for a while and work what I like to call a “normal person job”, save up money, and then reinvest that money into your career. It can be very hard, stressful, depressing, and honestly – make you feel like you are selling your soul to the devil. It is really hard to be an artist and know at this current time, you just cannot live off of your art. You know that soon you will, but you do need to make income from another source and that is just the way it is sometimes. For years I battled with depression in relation to this. I allowed myself to feel like being a musician was a burden. I “didn’t have a choice”. I was “born this way”. It’s true, I don’t have a choice and I was born this way. Being a musician is all I know, it is who I am, it always has been – but the thing is… it is always going to be there. There is this constant pressure to be famous. People say to me “Well if you’re not famous by the time you’re 25, you might as well just give up and do something different.” At this point in my life, I’ve finally taken a step back, realized all of my accomplishments thus far and I say hey – I deserve a moment to just get my life together outside of my music career and then come back full force. And it’s not like I’m still not working on my music. I am currently in the process of my debut solo EP and doing very well with it, and I am also the Social Media Coordinator for a festival in Niagara Falls called The Carmel Fine Art & Music Festival. I am still very busy and immersed in the music culture – I’m just not playing gigs at the moment. Before, I would have felt like I was a failure. I used to play no less than three gigs a month with the band. But now… I realize that yeah, gigging is amazing and great – but my god if my life isn’t stable on the outside of those gigs, the gigs just become torture. They aren’t enjoyable, they never pay enough to be enjoyable, and I’d rather be spending my time working on my EP or building my arts resume by working with the Carmel festival. I’ve been gigging non stop for three years. At this point, I think its very important for me to get behind the scenes a little more and create plans, goals – create more opportunities for myself through working really really hard on things that I haven’t done before. And that is what I am doing right now. I am working my ass off to become more knowledgable in all aspects of the music industry, instead of just performance. I’ve got that down pat. I’m a great performer and I know it. Of course I’ve got a lot to learn – but what I really need to focus on is handling my career as my own personal business manager. I’ve been great at creating a brand for myself thus far, but I really need to start pushing that further and breaking boundaries.
So, if you’re interested in knowing where I’ve been over the last few months – that is where. Of course I’ve never stopped posting, ect. – but when it comes to content & gigs – I am working my ass off to give you all the BEST content you’ve EVER heard from me. Content that will move the mountains in the rockies and blast your spotify’s, itunes & radios so loudly and proudly that you’d wished I hadn’t taken so much time to really focus and make my music and knowledge what it needs to be. Just kidding, you’ll be grateful that I did because this EP is going to be something that no one will ever expect from me. I am breaking down walls I didn’t know I had, I am speaking truths that I know more than many can relate to – this is so real. So please, bare with me as I make it the best release of all time.
I love you,