Recently I have lost my job (don’t worry, I’ve already got a new job that is WAY BETTER AND WAY MORE EXCITING AND RELEVANT TO MY ACTUAL LIFE!!) and it has presented me with the opportunity to take this next month become more active online. My Instagram is always poppin’, but sometimes I forget that people really like to hear me sing. After all, that is the main reason why people follow me, right?
Within the last few weeks I’ve posted two Christmas songs, but today I thought I’d change it up and cover one of the greatest songs that Miley has ever come out with. Of course, Mark Ronson is my dream to work with – so all respects given, I had to do this song. This is not something I’d normally sing so it was extremely enjoyable to explore new elements of my voice while recording this song.
As for the actual meaning of the song, Miley mentioned on Jimmy Fallon that she wanted to have a political drive to this song, an actual purpose. It definitely runs deep in this song, as well as in the music video. Once hearing this, my connection grew even stronger for the song.
It’s true. The lyric below reflects the beauty of the writing:
This world can hurt you
It cuts you deep and leaves a scar
Things fall apart, but nothing breaks like a heart.
Words like these, so simple yet so meaningful – truly powerful. This is why it was important for me to cover this song. Previously, covers were really not something I enjoyed to do. Of course singing any music is fun – but for some reason I had closed myself off and felt like I should just stick to my own original music. I then came to a realization that the cool thing about covering others songs is putting your own perspective on it, which not only allows you to feel the meaning of the song in your own shoes, but it also allows you to expand your talents as an artist which should always be taken as a gift and an opportunity.
As for the rest of my life/music career – as I advised you above, I lost my job last Monday and at first, I was extremely devastated. It was the first job that I had held for more than a year other than Music (artist life) and I was extremely comfortable in the position, though I did hate it. Every day was a depressing day. The only thing that made it remotely enjoyable were the friends I made during my time there. When I first got fired I cried for about 10-15 minutes to my mom on the phone and then I said hold up, wait. What the hell am I crying for? I’ve wanted to leave this job since I’ve started this job and never had the courage to do so as I was so set in my ways. I got so comfortable that I was even allowing the job to harm my music career. I would come home every day and not even want to bother writing a song, ect. due to the fact that I was so worn out from talking to rude people all day (call centre job). I truly allowed this job to weigh me down for over a year!! What the hell!!!!!!! So – within 12 hours, I had an interview for another position, of which I thought was just another crappy call centre job… turns out its FAR FROM IT!! I successfully was hired and will be starting January 7th. I can’t say much about the actual position, but lets just say I’ll be working for a social media giant and I am BEYOND blessed. Not only is music my entire world, but social media is a strong passion and interest of mine – so to go to work every day and work in this field, it blows my mind. I am so grateful. Not only will I enjoy the job in and of itself, but I will be able to apply tools from the job into my own social media campaigns/music career. I got so lucky!! I truly do believe that everything happens for a reason. This last week has been proof of that.
So with that – what can you expect from me in the coming weeks/months? Well, I am not resting until I finally get an EP out this year. It has been a gruelling process of back and forth with producers, A&R reps, session players, Engineers and more. I have been offered some deals that truly just don’t make sense, and I’ve been offered deals that make sense but not for right now, most likely for in the future. It can become very frustrating. I have even tried to produce my own music so I can just release an EP without having to work with anyone… but the sound I want just isn’t coming through. I will keep at it, but I really want to be in the studio with someone who knows what they are doing. I have it all planned out, I just need to find someone who I can trust and doesn’t just want my money. The industry is an amazing place, but its also a rough place. It’s all a game and if you don’t play it right, you can go thousands of dollars in the hole. That is something I refuse to let happen to myself. I am too smart for that.
At this time, I will continue to write music — visit my family for Christmas — write out my five year plan and begin executing it. This is my current short term goal. Something that is way more attainable.
I don’t want to tell you all that I’ll be releasing my EP within the coming months, because if you’ve been following me – I’ve been saying that for two years and we still don’t have an EP. There have been so many ups and downs both in life and in my career, I just don’t want to release something that doesn’t mean anything to me. It is so important for me to be in love with my debut project. I can’t just throw something together and put it out just for the sake of having material out there. I wont allow it.
With that, I thank you all for sticking with me. The EP will happen oh, so soon – I just need the right people in my circle. I am on my way to this as we speak. I can happily say that I am finally in a place where I know which direction to turn.
I hope you have a wonderful Holiday filled with love, family & GREAT FOOD!! ❤